busy busy ...

this sem really alot things to do >< ... physics lab report ... chem proforma ... 1 tutorial which need to be handed up every friday ... then still got 3 more other tutorials ... ahhh ... too many things -_- ... thats the outcome of 21 AU ... but oh well ... good to be busy ... need to spend more time on tutorials and less time on castle age !!! ...

a wedding dinner ...

just went to my cousin wedding yesterday at malacca ... eventhough i dunno him well ... so at first i heard the wedding is held at some 'hui guan' ... which is like some clan hall in simple terms ... then i'm thinking "wah should be nth grand bah ..." so we went there and turn out really is a hui guan ... but i was pleasantly surprised ... yes its a real hui guan but the decoration inside is really nice! ... of course there are no pics because i'm simply too lazy to take pics ... but there will be pics ... from my uncle's camera ... so anyway back to story ... let me describe it to the best of my crappy language ...

there's a BIG circular pic of the couple at the back of the stage ... seriously big ... then its surrounded by balloons, forming a heart shape but the heart doesn't merge together at the bottom tip ... the balloon ends at somewhere else ... that is something new that i never seen before ... so throughout the whole wedding, there's non stop entertainment ... this 3 guys 1 girl keep singing many many songs ... 1 keyboard, 1 guitar, 1 vocal ... so they literally sing the whole night ... many songs that i'm sooooo familiar with ... then at the stage, there's 2 fire spitting thingy ... keep flaming ... can feel the heat -_- ... and the best part is still got those small fireworks that comes out from the stage ... if you play l4d2, its the same like concert map that fireworks ...  i'm impressed ... never seen it in sg weddings before ... of course you can't miss out the videos from the morning ... nicely done ... and there are soo many pics ... some pics really very nice ... the effects are masterfully done ... and one part of the wedding i couldn't believe my eyes ... at the start of the wedding, before the couple walked in, mickey and minnie mouse appeared -_- ... dead serious ... i'm thinking "WTF" ... who in the right mind would hire mickey and minnie for a wedding !!! ... but i can say they made it quite romantic ... nicely done ...

oh and now comes the food part ... wah ... the food is nice man ... cold dish (the sushi is nice ... bah ... everything is nice ...) ... shark fin (i ate so many bowls cause got extra -_- ... freaking 5 bowls lah ... and there's nth nice about the fins SO PLS STOP KILLING SHARKS FOR IT !!!) ... then still got roasted pork ... chicken ... mushroom with vege ... cereal prawns (damn nice ...) ... forgot if there is anything else and the dessert ice cream ... the weird thing is no rice or mee one ... the food is good ...

the whole wedding is really wonderful ... i can say its much better than sg wedding dinner ... the food, ambience ... its more like a wedding dinner ... you save the money on the venue and you can use the money to get other extra stuff !!! ... very good idea i must admit ...

looking at the wedding, i sure feel something missing in me ... oh well ...

now ...

the situation now cannot be resolved ... and i can't turn back time to fix things ... it has turn into something which i can't control or do anything about ... so i can only leave it as it is ... no one is to be blame but myself ... because of my inability to understand and communicate better ... and of course its due to the things i say, which is deteriorating day by day, i just couldn't say normal stuff anymore ... but to me, i don't think i'm giving out any wrong ideas ... maybe its how they inteprete ... i dunno ... and i will NEVER know ... no one ever tell me ...

if you ask if i regret ? ... i can say yes and no ... because i got no idea where i went wrong ... i seriously thought everything was going well ... but it turns out whatever that happened 1 mth plus ago is just my misconception ... maybe i really can't learn ... maybe i'll always be stuck there ... maybe i'll never be able to climb out again ...

Your actions lies in you ...

i'm gonna spend some time and write this ... i taught myself this logic because i don't want other people to affect my actions ... whenever someone makes you angry, do you get pissed ? ... if you do, it means you are not controlling your own actions ... you have a choice to choose to get pissed or just forget it ... its up to other ppl to do what they want ... we can't stop them nor change them ... what we can do is control how we react ...

for example, a guy walk and drop into the drain ... can you control that ? ... no you can't ... we can't control his actions ... how the hell we know why he drop into the drain ... but we can choose to either laugh or help him ... this is our action, the thing that we can control ...

of course it doesn't only apply to getting angry ... it can apply everywhere ... if ppl scold you and you think its illogical then dun bother listening to them! ... their mouth = their problem ... my action = my problem ... at most if the person is really too much and you think it will affect his development then you can tell him his mistakes or he should not do that blah blah blah ... whether he listen or not is up to him ... we did our part as we can't force an idea or theory into someone ...

many things is way beyond our control ... but we can control ourselves ... don't let other ppl affect your actions ... that is what happened to me ... i shouldn't let the choices ppl make affect my actions ... i remembered this thing and that is why i'm back to normal now ...

oh and if you think ppl scolding you is bad cause you lose pride ... then how much is pride worth ? ... there was once my recruit told me "sergeant you shouldn't just let him anyhow scold you (in a fun way) " then i tell him ... "him scolding me doesn't affect me ... i lose nothing ... and the things he say won't change the way my life is now ..." then he said "but its pride" and i replied "how much is pride worth ? nothing ..." he said "but ......." he couldn't find the words to continue ...

come to think of it now ... i must add on some stuff ... the things people say won't affect my life rite ... if that guy say "go and die" ... would you die immediately ??? ... no ... "go eat shit" ... would you do that ??? ... no ... but if "can you do this to improve blah blah blah" of course you must take into consideration what he/she said and think through before doing it ... following blinding is just like scolding ppl ... not thinking ...
so i don't see any reason why must we be angry if someone scold you ...

so the next time someone say something bad about you, think through first ... if it is true, you will know it and change for the better ... but if its not true then ignore it ... there is no need to say anything else to that person ... so remember this ... others don't determine who you are, only you determine who you are ...

hmmm ...

i'm back to normal now ... forgot about my own theory where what ppl do is what they do and i can't do anything about it ... but how i react to how it affects me is what i can control ... so of course this time i managed to fail myself ... but at least it reminds me of my theory again ...

reason ...

no need for any reason to know why ... kind of obvious actually ... so i don't need to say the reason ... i'll only say its an accumulation of things ...

what if the things that happened never ever existed ? ...
what if what you thought and saw never ever existed ? ...
what if you keep failing but the reason never ever existed ? ...

something is wrong ...

yes something is terribly wrong !!! ... and the worst part is i got completely no idea what is wrong !!! ... maybe its something that i typed somewhere ? or anywhere ? ... maybe today is not the day ? ... maybe i'm really bad at it ? ...
so many maybes and i got absolutely no clue ... i hope there are lots of clues ... at least it'll be easier for me to figure out ... but now i'm really suspecting i'm really not able to do it ... OR they are meant to be this way towards me ...
but there's always the wrong idea floating around ... HUMANS THINK !!! ... its so tiring to keep figuring out and yet not knowing any ... one day i'm sure i will stop and when that day comes it will be the start of something new and the end of the known and usual future ...
so tiring ... give me a break ... tell me something ... whatever it may help me figure out ... ANYTHING ...

unbelievable ...

' We are two student researchers from blah blah blah, and we are carrying out a research project, as part of our (FYP) thesis, to explore the development of romantic relationships in massively multiplayer online role-playing games (MMORPGs).
Currently, we are looking for MapleStory players for our online interviews. During these interviews, we will ask you about your experiences in your romantic relationships formed in MapleStory. All you need to do is to be present on your instant messenger at the date and time arranged. '

WOW ... research on romantic relationship in mmorpg O.o ... now thats something new ... oh and you will be paid ... i can't believe this is happening -_- ... but maple is ... crap lol ... there are lots of relationship that happen through online stuff but why maple ??? ... i would suggest they take habbo instead ... more likely to find more data ... maple you go in whack non stop ... where got time to go find relationship ... crappy game which i don't play ... next time then i'll talk about online relationship ...

today go mind cafe play ... learn new games ... quite fun ... but we play too much then forgot to enjoy the free flow drinks ... damn ... maybe next time can go there again ... play even more games ... not bad i would say ...

pulau ubin ...

yes !!! finally went to pulau ubin to cycle ... after waiting sooooooooooo long ... always wanted to go there and cycle since dunno how long ago ... we went on 2nd day of 2010 ... its quite fun ... go up those slopes and speeding down those slopes ... damn fun ... love the speed woooo ... boat ride $2.50 ... bicycle $6 ... eventhough the bike is kind of crap but we are good enough to not need anything good :) ... really love the slopes ... one day must go back again ... hahahahaha ...

at the ferry terminal ...


in the bumboat ...



we are special ^^ ...



entrance of pulau ubin ...




how the shops look like ...




i like the sign ... so damn cute ...



look at the slope !!! ...


observatory tower ...










my ex second home !!! ... pulau tekong ...


locate the creature in the next 3 pics ...








lone tree ...










the house ...


description of the house ...


looks like ....................


like someone organs ...

looks cool ...


its cold there ... trust me ...






oks this an ant or me millipede ? ... seem to have an ant head and millipede body ... any ideas ? ...



solar panel in ubin ??? ...


the pic after the journey ...


back in bumboat ...





overall quite fun i can say ... go look around nature ... see many things ... but very shag !!! ... the upslopes really can kill ... maybe i'm getting weaker lol ...

conclusion of 09 hokkaido + shanghai ...

my final thoughts of the trip and after this will blog about other stuff le ... overall i can say its a wonderful experience ...

going crazily close to a live volcano and smell the sulphur and looking at its boiling stream of water ...

experiencing very low temperatures ... it really IS cold especially at the mountain top ... if stay for long sure cmi ...

when we went for the tour briefing the guy got say open air hot spring then i'm like wth ... so cold walk out naked is crazy ... but after thinking abit i tell myself ... since i'm there le so might as well do stupid things rite ... life is short ... it seems like this sentence is the best thing to follow "Live life. Be who you are. Fall in love with the wrong people, do stupid things, because life is too short for you to care" ... this sentence actually helped me do alot of things so far ... so i really went for the open air hot spring ... crazy experience but love the experience ... hahahaha ...

eating the hokkaido crab was wonderful ... i just simply love the crabs ... kuishin bo one is salty but hokkaido ones are not salty ... you see the big piece of meat you'll go high lol ... when you put into your mouth you'll go sky high ... when you eat it you'll feel like you're not on planet earth anymore ... yes its very nice ... only my description abit kua zhang lol ...

ahhh and skiing is fun ... i really want to do it again ... this time i'll do better wahahahaha ... its really kind of easy to get the hang of it ... you only need to know how to stop ... the rest you can be slowly and easily explore ... thats good enough for first timers ... if i get to ski again i'll figure out the real technique of balance and turning ... so fun to evade people lol ...

oh and i realise my gynophobia % dropped when i was there ... can't think of a good explaination but i think it has got to do with living life and doing stupid things bah ... love those words ... i think its said by some professor to a student ... maybe i also feel less restricted there ? but can't be ... maybe i really heck care just do it ...

and now the last few pics of the trip ... and somethings to say bah ... i think its relatively safe to say here because i'm quite positive the people reading my blog won't be the ones mentioned lol ... the pics will be in order of when i took it ... so don't anyhow think -_- ... oh and to the people that read my blog ... pls keep in mind that i treat the girls as friends and nothing else ... so don't ask me about it lol ... oh and if you're wondering why i write this ... its because it serve as a memory for me ... i tend to forget alot of things ... so that maybe 1 year down the road i read my blog and can bring back the fun time ? ... and don't take me that seriously :) ...


Jasmine ...


hahaha okay i want to say this ... first day at the airport i see her i'm like "what ??? come airport also want to draw the eyes O.o" which i think looks kind of bad :X ... my close friends will know whats with me and make up wahahaha ... then i also thinking "hmm ... without the eyeliner better or worse ?" and i got my answer on the 3rd day ... better without ... anyway i think her eyes are very nice ... big big ... doesn't look big here but in real life her eyes quite big ... then there's life in her eyes too ... dun need to know what it means ... really really like her eyes ... can fight with many other nice eyes ... oh and she's good ... character i mean ... oh i forgot something ... the thing that shock me is at the hokkaido outlet there ... in the bus suddenly she say "can i call you kor" ... i was shock lol ... from then its bernard kor kor ... lololololol ... hey i seldom hear ppl call me kor kor okay ... so its funny for me hahaha ...


Elvina ...


oh the very talented and smart one ... she's kind of cute ... i mean her character ... everytime her father call out for her she dun reply hahaha ... very funny ... then the way she reply her father also very funny ... can see she's really very clever but still very playful lol ... haha she also call me bernard kor kor ... sooo not used to ppl calling me that lol ... oh the version of canon in d she played on the piano kind of nice ... never heard that version before ... need to go and find it ... i know how the mag lev train works ... one day i'll tell her ...


Rayna ...


the youngest of them all ... like everytime kenna bully by them lol ... skiing that time keep falling ... kind of low profile compare to the rest ... so i really can't say much ...


Jasper ...


oh at first is my mother talking to their grandmother then know he's from NTU EEE direct 2nd year and same age as me ... then i heard they say he commando ... then i thinking maybe he knows chua ? ... then turn out really know each other ... such a small world ... he's very quiet ... like no talk much ... oh then i see his psp then know got N64 emulator -_- ... before that i dun know such thing exist zzz ... how dumb of me ... hmm i wonder how is his results ... one day must ask ...


Jessica


oh another low profile ... i know my sister like to talk to her lol ... oh and she told me about the 3 of them who likes to fight with each other ... the 3 younger ones ... can't say much too ...


Myron ...


first thing is weird name ... other than that he's very funny ... likes to do alot of funny stuff ... can really make ppl laugh lol ... the way he talk is very smart ... got once in the hotel lobby ... he go sit at one place where the phone is located and he pick up the phone and say " mama your phone call" lololololol ... damn funny lah ... the grandma also shock ... hahahaha ... the things he say or do sometimes quite funny ... no wonder they like him so much ...


Amanda ...


hahaha didn't expect her to be track and field ... totally dun have the track and field look ... look at her ... her skin tone not even dark ... incredible ... lololol ... and she doesn't know sign up for itunes dun need credit card hahahahaha :X ... and in shanghai we were trying to break each other high score for spazzle ... but ... mine can't be broken :) ... she's interesting ...


hahahaha i hope they don't see this :X ... anyway this will finally conclude the trip bah ... glad to know all of them :) ... next blog post will be something else already ...

shanghai day 5 ... last day of dream ...

the last day actually not much event ... wake at 0545 zzz ... army style ... then sit coach bus go sit mag lev train ... the last time i went to shanghai i was already trying to guess how it works and move ... but i was lazy to go search on it ... so i decided to ask elvina how to works ... she had the same guess as me how to works ... but she can't come out with how it moves :X ... my original theory is ... for it to be levitating the magnet are repelling and the weight of the train = the repelling force ... thats why the train will levitate ... and for it to move there are magnets that are attracting at the front and repelling all through the bottom of the train ... so there's circuits to keep changing the poles ... basically electromagnets ...

and after researching this is the real answer ... i can say my guess is very close ... at the bottom of the train is a type of material that has diamagnetic properties (a property that will repel any any magnet that it comes close to) ... and this material has to be super cooled to -200 degres before the diamagnetic property will kick in ... that is for the levitating part ... so the moving part ? ... attract at the front and repel at the back ... a slight push on the train will let it move already ... oh and another thing is how the track is arranged ... NSN ... so with this dimagnetic on the NSN it sort of creates a 'tunnel' for the train to move in ... this solves the mystery of the mag lev train in shanghai ...

okay so back to topic ... the train travel at 300km/h but its top speed is 430km/h ... after the train ride we are in the airport le ... so wait for the coach to reach ... and finally took a group 'kids' pic ... the rest of the pic will be in the last dreaming post ... then slowly wait for check in and ... off we go back to singapore ...

shanghai day 4 ...

wake at 0600 >< and breakfast is quite crappy ... for the first destination we went to long jing tea village ... go there taste eat and part with our money again ... there can bargain too lol ... the muah chee ... actually 3 for 100 ... then change to 3 for 100 free 1 ... then after bargaining 5 for 100 lolololol ... aiya ITS CHINA !!! ... as usual ... on a side note ... to me tea taste the same ? ... dunno how to slowlyyyyyyyyyyyyy enjoy it ...

saw this mini fountain at the hotel ...


dog at long jing cha village ...





okay so after trying the tea we go to those jade + precious stones shop to part with much much more of our money ... this is the whole story ... we were sitted in a room and this sales person come in talk abit then say want to ask his CEO to come talk to us (dunno for what) ... then after that the CEO came but he totally doesn't look like a CEO ... turn out he is the grandson of the CEO ... he totally dun like to be in china lol ... say china no fun ... very restricted blah blah blah ... basically he just wants to have funnnnnnnn ... so he talk talk talk ... tell us don't buy because he also don't care ... then he there entertaining us ... so finally he walk out of the room with us and just ask us to anyhow see ... dun buy also can ... then all looking around ... then forgot why he suddenly give this jade pendant to the grandma ... we all SHOCK ... he just like that give O.o ... FOC ... then now he start selling the products ... he taught us how to see jade ... but he totally mishandling the jade lah ... wtf ... anyhow throw ... he even scratch is own glass lololol ... he cam drop the price of i think 500 to 20 lor ... then 800 to 100 ... 1k+ to 200 ... he just like "okay lah 100 will do" ... damn shocking ... we the 'kids' were at one corner trying to believe what he said ... the shock ... then after that he intro more expensive stuff ... from 50k drop to 4k ... crazy guy ... too rich le ... TOO TOO rich ... so after parting with lots of money and shock ... we finally went for lunch ... nth fantastic bah ...

pic of the rich guy with my mother ... he's 28 btw ...


then now its journey back to shanghai ... LONGGGGGGGG journey zzzzzz ... talked to them in the bus ... while they try to break my unbreakable spazzle high score on my itouch ... i love talking to ppl ... i'm a gemini after all ... but i'm shy :( ... 

then at the entry into shanghai got jam zzz ... because of the freaking toll station ... takes veryyyyyy long to pass through ... crap sia ... then we went to feet massage ... wah the massager for mine like totally not happy -_- ... they are students ... she like totally not happy lor ... not happy dun study for it lor ... i see the rest okay leh ... only mine that one zzzzzz ... dun say le ...  then dinner is my favourite meal ... herb meal !!! ... yum yum ... love it ... its one of the best china meal so far ...

after dinner went to their relative house ... i must say he's rich lol ... can own 2 condo apartment then the whole floor become his le ... then the house is big for a condo ... then go there eat that da zha xie ... 'big crab' which is not big ... most ppl eat the eggs but yuck i dun like to eat the eggs ... chicken egg okay ... but crab egg ....... no go for me lol ... then after that went back to hotel ... hotel nth much ... tmr last day ... sad ...