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the world is evil ... everything is evil ... the whole fucking universe is against me ... always against me ... the universe hates me ... universe wants to hurt me ... universe wants to torture me ... universe wants to get rid of me ... fine ... go ahead universe !!! ... do all you want ... i'm just a puppet anyway ... a toy for the universe to play with ... a toy that the universe will never get bored of because i'm just so fun to be played ...

and i fucking hate it ...



and you ... i don't wish to say anything anymore ... i believe too much ... too much until i got cheated ... it wasn't going to happen at all and yet i got cheated by you ... i fucking believed you time and time again ... everytime you lied to me i told myself nvm i can trust you again since you say so ... but then you were just making use of my 'golden' mouth to get things ... heck maybe everything you said are also to cheat me !!! for you to accomplish what you wanted !!! fucking hell ... bring someone high up so that they will drop more painful ... and thats what you achieved okay !!! but now ... whatever ... i got nth more to say to you ...

oh and on a side note ... its all not a waste of time if everything was real ... its a waste of time if you are just leading me on so that you can reach your final goal ...